Starving Ravenous Hunger
By Amelia Rose
Hungry
Starving
My stomach churning in knots
I feel empty
With not a scrap, not a morsel to be found.
I’m starving.
Literally starving.
A day goes by
But there is nothing
Nothing to sate the hunger I feel
A second day goes by
Still nothing found to ease the hunger pains
That wrack my tortured body
A third day goes by
My last and final day
Before I give up, to lay down and die
But in that last moment I look up
And I find it
I find the crumb of nourishment
That will keep me alive
That will keep my heart beating
For one more hour, one more day.
My whole life it has been like this;
A frantic nomadic search
For the sustenance that will keep me going
Day in and day out
Wandering
Always wandering; Searching
For the next crumb, the next scrap
That will keep me alive.
But I never can find enough
I never can feel full
I have never felt full
Never in my whole life
Not once.
Actually, maybe once.
Once I found enough sustenance
That carried me though a summer
And I felt full then.
It was glorious
For a time
But even that was fleeting
It didn’t last
After only a single season it was gone
And I was left the way I started
Starving
Yet again.
But this time it was even worse
Because I knew what I was missing
And to feel the hunger back again
Felt worse than any pain I’d ever known.
I had to get used to it again
I had to learn to live with the hunger pains once more
And ever since it’s been the same
My whole life I’ve been hungry
Always starved
Always on the brink of death
But then in the last moment before I’m gone,
I find that one morsel
That will sustain me for one more day, one more hour, one more week
And I keep going
It’s how I keep going
It’s how my life keeps moving along
But throughout it
I’m always
Starved
Hungry
Famished
Ravenous
Insatiably Starved;
Starved for your attention.
