Starving Ravenous Hunger

Starving Ravenous Hunger

By Amelia Rose

Hungry

Starving

My stomach churning in knots

I feel empty

With not a scrap, not a morsel to be found.
I’m starving.

Literally starving.

A day goes by

But there is nothing 

Nothing to sate the hunger I feel

A second day goes by

Still nothing found to ease the hunger pains

That wrack my tortured body

A third day goes by

My last and final day

Before I give up, to lay down and die

But in that last moment I look up

And I find it

I find the crumb of nourishment

That will keep me alive

That will keep my heart beating

For one more hour, one more day.

My whole life it has been like this;

A frantic nomadic search

For the sustenance that will keep me going

Day in and day out

Wandering

Always wandering; Searching 

For the next crumb, the next scrap

That will keep me alive.

But I never can find enough

I never can feel full

I have never felt full

Never in my whole life

Not once.

Actually, maybe once.

Once I found enough sustenance

That carried me though a summer

And I felt full then.

It was glorious

For a time

But even that was fleeting

It didn’t last

After only a single season it was gone

And I was left the way I started

Starving

Yet again.

But this time it was even worse

Because I knew what I was missing

And to feel the hunger back again

Felt worse than any pain I’d ever known.

I had to get used to it again

I had to learn to live with the hunger pains once more

And ever since it’s been the same 

My whole life I’ve been hungry

Always starved

Always on the brink of death

But then in the last moment before I’m gone,

I find that one morsel

That will sustain me for one more day, one more hour, one more week

And I keep going

It’s how I keep going

It’s how my life keeps moving along

But throughout it

I’m always

Starved

Hungry

Famished 

Ravenous

Insatiably Starved;

Starved for your attention.